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My hope is that my writing has the ability to connect to what lies at the core of being human. Whether I am writing poetry, a newsletter, or an essay, my writing aims to be honest, attentive, and centered around connection. May these words housed here meet you and encourage you.
Speak: Poetry Edition
May 2021
For this compilation, I wanted to return back to an older prompt, but focus it in on poetry. With each compilation, I noticed more and more people were writing poetry. I had never done a genre focused prompt, but in honor of April being poetry month, I wanted to try something new.
These pieces below are create a raw and beautiful collection of poetry from various writers. If any of these connect with you, share a comment or let me know and I will make sure the writer hears your words!
Enjoy, my friends!
I’m sorry we lied.
Hid behind black and white
terrified of not knowing,
of having no control.
I’m sorry we told you
to fit the mold
or get out.
I’m sorry we let you leave.
Forced your hand.
I’m sorry we let power corrupt.
Broke backs
not bread.
Drank hypocrisy
not wine.
Spoke in tongues
not love.
You belong here
as you are.
You are safe to ask questions.
Safe to wrestle.
Safe to change
your mind.
This is not mass conformity
Nor mind control.
This is liberation.
You are free to walk away,
to stay,
to come back Home.
I’m sorry we were blind.
Grace Gamache
Yes, no, maybe so
Kinda-sorta, not quite sure
Hurts more than just us, you know
Awakened by dreams
They were truly bad nightmares
Help me out somehow
Yes, leave me alone
No, don’t bother me once more
I am my own loan
Borrowed for a while
Pay is coming with interest
Not what I believe
Parker Nail
I Can Hear Your Heartbeat
I love to ask about the heart.
The matters of the heart.
The home where the heart “is.”
The broken heart.
The heart attack.
The heart break.
The heartwarming—a favorite of mine.
The hidden heart, the loving heart, the gentle heart, the sick heart, the evil heart, the heart that loves me. The heart(s) that love me. Love(d) me.
A dear friend once asked,
“How’s your heart?”
I haven’t gone back since.
I have one too.
Afraid of Asking
I think I am intelligently created.
But you don’t believe that.
So what do we do?
Back On My Knees
Should I sit on my knees to talk to you?
How do I converse with a person I don’t see. A person I can’t see. Wait this piano music is really moving me.
Wait, this piano music made me feel close to you. I’m in a building with people to study and love your words you gave to us. Are they really your words?
Who is right, who is wrong?
I’m scared to be wrong. I feel safe with not knowing. Your religion scares me out of life.
Your religion, your faith—it doesn’t add up.
Unconditional love seems to have many many conditions these days.
I’ll just get back on my knees, fearful.
COMFORTINGLY SIMILAR, WILDLY DIFFERENT
You’re not here yet,
But when you are I know you’ll love it.
The places your mind will take
You will certainly bring joy, curiosity,
And a fondness for people you’ve yet to meet.
If you ever begin to worry, find your friends.
The ones that rescue instead of demand,
And they will be your heroes.
Some will be comfortingly similar to you,
And others—wildly different.
You haven’t met them yet,
But when you do—I’m certain you’ll love them.
a letter poem found in Carolina’s shoebox, one week after the kite.
Karmen Smith
Terraforming
I imagine my great great great grandchild, in orbit:
Gently rotating, head tilted slightly back,
Staring down through the vacuum at the glistening radiance,
Bluer than the bluest of eyes.
And I imagine that my great great great grandchild is smiling
With a mix of astonishment, awe, and pride
At what humankind had accomplished heretofore
In that briefest of moments—in geologic time—that defined its existence.
I wonder if my great great great grandchild, in the face of such a wonder,
Will stop and think what life was like in my time.
When trivialities reigned with such fierce import
And so,
so
so much time was wasted.
Would that fleeting image of me in memory mar that moment,
And would that smile wither away,
As my great great great grandchild, in orbit, considered,
For the briefest of moments, that creation below?
John R. Barner
April 18, 2021‘
A Letter For the Sick
This is a letter for the sick.
Why do you rely on medicine alone to heal?
Is it not I who gives medicine the power to heal?
You take medicine daily to be healed yet you forget about the source of healing.
You take my gifts and you run.
You are my beloved.
This is a letter for the deaf.
am crying out to you,
Yet you refuse to listen.
You hear my voice, and then you block me out.
I am closer than your breath and you still keep things from me.
You are my beloved.
This is a letter for the colorblind
My voice is written and I am not blank.
With one motion you can see my love.
The red letters are woven into your heart.
I’m right in front of you.
You are my beloved.
This is a letter for the discomforted
You have let him into my safe space.
Can a branch bear fruit apart from the vine.
It is thrown away and withers.
Abide in me and your joy will be complete.
You are my beloved.
This is a letter for the weary
You have heard that my yoke is easy and my burden is light
But do you believe it?
Not only is my burden not heavy,
But it is the literal light that you see everyday.
I AM comfort and
You are my beloved.
This is a letter for the one walking away
I am right behind you.
You can walk down paths that lead you nowhere
But I will always run after you when you decide to turn around.
You are my beloved.
This is a letter for the worrisome
Tomorrow will worry about itself.
I’m not worried so why should you?
I am the most relaxed person to ever walk the planet.
Tomorrow, I knew that you would betray me,
Yet I still prepared my table for you.
Tomorrow, I knew that you would deny me,
Yet I still washed your feet.
You are my beloved.
This a letter for those who now know
These words are no longer just words,
But they are the truth.
Now you see yourself how I see you
And you fall before me because you have seen my holiness.
I am constantly fighting for you,
Turning your sorrow to gladness
And springing lilies from your barren soil.
I value this relationship that I would rather die
Than not be with you.
You are worthy.
You are beautiful.
You are my beloved
Austin Frederking
green
it’s spring again, and I love the green
it’s everywhere I look,
and I can’t get enough of it.
in it I see hope and
growth and a freshness
that sets my mind at ease
and brings me peace.
and I can hear your voice sometimes
telling me that I’m green too.
green like the green that
grows on trees.
like the green I like so much.
I get so in my head about
getting it all right.
and you whisper to me that it’s okay,
I’m green too,
growing like the trees that
bring fresh air,
becoming
learning
taking color.
and green is beautiful
but it also stings sometimes
because it’s not forever.
it’ll grow these beautiful flowers,
blooming for all to see
and admire and pick and cherish
and it’ll also die and wilt away.
and in winter we’ll forget all about
the vibrant green
that made the freshest air
and when we all took a deep breath
together.
we won’t be able to see that color
quite so clearly.
green isn’t forever
and neither are the flowers
but green will always be
green again.
you say I’m green too
and even though I don’t like
the color so much on me,
I’ll still take a deep breath.
I won’t be green forever.
I’ll grow flowers, and I’ll wilt away
but I’ll always be green again.
it’ll always be spring again.
Caroline Beltrami
there’s this version of you
that I cant afford to forget
its the best one
the purest one
the simplest one
and if I forget
then what was all this for
there’s this version of you
thats slipping away
as hard as I try
to remember the details
the moments
they fade quicker than I can keep up
there’s this version of you
that haunts me
that feels real
but is too distant to touch
I want it back
but never will
there’s this version of you
thats holding onto me
it overtakes me when I least
expect it
when I try and push it away
it floods my memory
there’s this version of you
that im letting go of
im making peace with
im allowing myself
to grow away from
there’s this version of you
that ill always miss
Savannah Shaw
Speak
He invites me to
I open my mouth in response
And an opposing force stops me short
A memory, several of them
A recollection of the last time I tried ties my tongue
How little the truth set me free back then
He invites me yet again
With tear laden eyes
For honesty
More than anything
For confirmation, affirmation
That our relationship is still on the mend
The anger wells
And dissipates
Like smoke from a tea light
How crippling are his tears to me
How quickly I unravel
I remember, yes
But the fury fades
Soon after this conversation
It will return
And some regret will hold fast
Building like dust on a ceiling fan blade
I go on autopilot
Trying to respond with truths that are sufficient enough
That feel like progress
Yet the back of my head swims with
The other truths
The infidelity
The manipulation
The lies
The irrationality
The dependence
The distractedness
How does it all lose its legitimacy
When it is time to address it
In the face of sincerity
I know the healing process is slowed all the more without doing so
And I am doing everyone involved a disservice
But if I speak, then what
Then we’re back at the start
The root of it all still orange embers
Never cooling
Words are so powerful when spoken
So troubling when harbored
Something so intangible so able to shatter
To mend
I remain – comfortable enough in the land of half spoken
Fanning my embers
Soothing my hope in the future all the same
Am I waiting for something to break?
Some moment that warrants my words more than now?
Surely I am
Surely I should
Speak
Anonymous
April 27th
It’s just days now.
I’m sure of it.
The days, yes.
But the man, I mean.
I’m sure of him.
I trust him.
I love him.
Last night I watched him lead.
He led a crowd to bend down low.
And to raise their voices.
To cry out to the One who hears.
The One who heals.
The One who healed.
I’m sure of it.
Yes, the healing.
But the King, I mean.
I’m sure of him.
I trust him.
I love him.
I believe him.
I will follow him.
We will follow him.
I’m sure of it.
Rachel Gamblin
To Natalie,
To know you
Two lily pads away.
To meet you one day at the Fern Forest Cafe.
To beauty I drew,
To freedom I stayed.
Too unique just
To be
Two long hops away.
Today, we will meet
Two hours today
To make less the leap from two cities away.
To eat and
To drink,
To share time and space.
Together we’ll meet at the Silver Soiree.
“To Beauty”
“To Freedom”
“To Friendship,” we say.
Tomorrow we’ll meet at the Fellows Cafe.
Two melodies
Two tunes
Two friends we will stay.
To never now be
Two too far away.
Carson Travers
She burned a deep yellow
Fierce and bright
Her roots sank deeper
With each morning’s new burst of light
As she began to learn
She began to grow
Deeper and deeper went her roots
And it began to show
Some walked by her
Admiring her beauty
And some walked by her
Whispering in dismay
“That weed doesn’t belong here,”
She would hear them say
Yet still she stood tall
For she did not want to fall
One night
As she continued to grow
She suddenly realized
Her color no longer showed
A soft gray
Took yellow’s place
Time and wisdom
Seemed to glow in her face
New seeds were growing within her
Bursting forth with new life
On the outside she appeared fragile
But on the inside she grew with new might
Suddenly
The winds of change began to blow
And she quickly realized
It was almost her time to go
But this was not her death
No, she still had much life left to live
But she had lived enough to know
That her time in this place had come to a close
She had grown and grown
And seen new things
But she had new things she needed to see
And new things she needed to dream
So one by one
Her seeds blew away
Gently and softly
Into the light of the day
She saw that every piece that broke off of her
Was bursting forth with life abundantly
And in each of the places they flew
Life bloomed new
And started again.
So if the Little Dandelion learned anything through her journey
It’s that sometimes the bravest thing you can do
Is to let go when the winds begin to blow
For perhaps it’s only then
That you truly begin to grow
Hailey Hawkins
you wanted glass castles
and high mantles
big enough for fires that can burn the bridge(t)s between you and your past relationships
did i say relationships?
i meant all the different versions of life you led
never once bringing yourself fully to the table
the good old days
insecurity and insincerity
what if you told me you missed it?
but i miss you
don’t waste wood trying to burn down the bridge(t) you built
between where you stand still and where i move foreword
the good new days
Bridget Walton
On the plane watching the news
The unrest.
The murder.
The bombing in Palestine & Israel
Horror.
The numbers are rising.
They keep rising.
For Palestine more so.
more so.
Please, make it stop.
Oh God, we need you.
Oh God, how are you responding to this now?
How shall I?
I ache.
I distract myself, so I don’t have to sit in the gut-wrenching pain
of confusion
of hopelessness
of inability to make right
what is so clearly wrong
Oh God, my stomach hurts.
We need you.
You are the God of hope.
But where is hope?
We need you.
You are the God of healing.
But where is healing?
We need you.
Oh the land needs your healing, God.
Oh I humble myself.
I follow your example, Jesus.
I don’t have the words to say
to honor both my Palestinian and Isreali friends
my Jewish & Muslim friends
I don’t have the words
but you do, Jesus.
I think of you, Jesus.
I picture you walking into Palestine
Walking with grace and peace
Looking the woman
the child
the man
Looking each one in the eye
and reaching toward them
Reaching out your hand to heal
to connect
to love and serve.
to protect.
I picture your eyes and your hands.
Oh I see your love for Palestinians
This love that could cause Israeli leaders to uproar.
I think of you, Jesus.
I picture you walking into Israel
Walking with grace and peace
Looking the woman
the child
the man,
Looking each one in the eye
and reaching toward them
Reaching out your hand to heal
to connect
to love and serve.
I picture your eyes and your hands.
Oh I see your love for Israelis
This love that could cause Palestinan leaders to uproar.
You love both.
You love all.
You are not violent, Jesus.
No, no, you Heal.
You are not hidden, Jesus.
No, no, you touch.
Oh Jesus, as I think of you, my soul is revived.
My hope is restored.
In a moment’s time, you do this.
There is hope for violence to cease.
There is hope for peace.
There is hope for justice.
There is hope for unity.
You are the hope for violence to cease.
You are the hope for peace.
You are the hope for justice.
You are the hope for unity.
You are.
Oh I ache for you.
Rachel Gamblin