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I’m interested in writing within the tensions of our humanity with the both and: our joy and our grief, beauty and brokenness, courage and fear, celebration and rage, and everything in between. 

My hope is that my writing has the ability to connect to what lies at the core of being human. Whether I am writing poetry, a newsletter, or an essay, my writing aims to be honest, attentive, and centered around connection. May these words housed here meet you and encourage you. 


July 2, 2022

Paying Attention Compilation: January 2022

Paying Attention Compilation

January 2022


I read Mary Oliver’s poem “Sometimes” for the first time in the summer of 2020 and this stanza below is one I haven’t been able to stop thinking about ever since. 

Instructions for living a life: 

Pay Attention. 

Be astonished. 

Tell about it. 

   Mary Oliver 

The reason I keep seeking to read more Mary Oliver and more poetry in general is because of how it leads me to pay attention more intentionally. The very act of paying attention awakens me to the depth of humanity, to the beauty of creation, and to the magnitude of life. It leads me to laugh more often and to cry a bit more often too. It brings me into awe. And, it brings me out of my head in a way that is healing. There is a cost with paying attention, however I believe that the benefits outweigh the costs any day. 

This past year was my year of reading books on writing. Each author essentially shares the same advice: pay attention. It is everything. 

This is a prompt I hope to always be exploring with and I hope it encourages you to explore it too.

These pieces below exemplify why paying attention is worth it. It is rich. It is beautiful. It is healing. 

As always, thank you to the writers willing to share their words! There is always great beauty and courage in doing so. And, to the readers, thank you for reading. May these words meet you and bring you into deeper attention in some way. 

Like a tree I find myself clinging to old blessings-

failing to believe there’s beauty to come. 

Have I not watched the Autumn leaves fall each year

simply to be replaced with the hope of new green? 

What do I do when I know is not what I’m experiencing?

Will your promises of abundance be enough when all I can see is my barrenness?

Will I trust that this winter will end too?

I will remind my soul what I know to be true,

I will rehearse joy knowing I will taste it someday soon. 

New seasons bring new mercies,

even here,

your loving kindness still surrounds me. 

You hold my very being together. 


I will let this winter do its work in me,

knowing it is carving out spaces in me to hold a depth I never thought possible. 

Thank you for the winter. 

Caleb Burke 


  1. Libros de pasaje con Abby, Katie, Ethan, y Trevor
  2. Baked goods for breakfast by Mercedes’ sister
  3. Mercedes singing
  4. Tango class
  5. The nice pharmacy man looking up pepto bismol on phone
  6. Argentine folk not being condescending about my Spanish
  7. 2 hours of yoga and massa at Ory


  1. The loud frogs in Baxley
  2. Getting to listen to North Point live on the way home
  3. Jam and Maddie and Annie and Seth and Malon and Rachel and Elif
  4. Finding a time for the girls to hang
  5. CFA with Macy and Rose
  6. Grocery with Becca
  7. This swing bench


  1. Coming downstairs yesterday to the array of valentines things on the table from roomies
  2. Talking to Cal on the phone
  3. Lady putting extra jellies in the Cracker Barrel fresh hot biscuits
  4. Taking Audj to class
  5. Running into ash as we secretly put valentines in everyone’s rooms
  6. Will getting me lavender that Toole picked up


  1. Everyone cooking in the kitchen
  2. Car swap
  3. Emma in Business 4000
  4. Holmes having an English accent
  5. Last first day of school pic
  6. Taq with Will
  7. Hanging at dirty Lump


  1. Waking with no alarm
  2. Driving Will to class
  3. La making me breakfast
  4. Caro stopping by
  5. 100 on quiz
  6. Visiting Leita
  7. Sitting on bean bags
  8. Bailey coaching


  1. Feeling good on flights to CO
  2. Kelly picking us up
  3. A pretty drive
  4. Arriving earlier than anyone expected
  5. Having our own house
  6. The views
  7. Seeing the sunrise
  8. Wedding day chill-ness
  9. Hot tub

Pay attention

Lindsay Lowery  

“Notes from Scotland”

This is what I’ve noticed in my paying attention:

It’s the seemingly ordinary moments, the wildly insignificant 

that has grabbed my attention as I settle my mind and focus.

Those moments, in fact, have become significant.

What I’ve seen and captured on my camera

begs for a second look at the supposed sacredness.

When I look again, I see it clearly now.

It would seem magical to move to a new country with building older than your own,

but these photos show mundane life lived extraordinarily

Despite what you may think

People live here

They go to work

Go to school

meet friends for dinner

grocery shop

Here – a pub is just a pub

and winter is cold

and the sun rises in the morning

I’m finding that it’s not the location that makes a life full of joy

It’s the small routines – the ebb & flow of your day

It’s the ordinary turned sacred in the moments you choose to stop and pay attention to.

Emily Heyduck

are you happy? 

I remember the way it felt to sit across the table from my very best friends. 

the ease and freedom that comes so easily with them. 

are you happy? 

I think about walking home from dinner, a consistent plan, my favorite kind. 

the air is cold on my skin as I make my way down the most familiar streets ive ever known

piano rings through my headphones, a new song that a good friend showed me earlier in the day. 

are you happy? 

I open my door – see the first home I have ever lived in alone 

memories from the last two months overwhelm me. 

the space I’ve always desired, has slowly been brought to life. 

are you happy? 

I wait for him to walk through the door, to greet me with a kiss 

he is patient and steady, exactly what I needed, exactly when I needed it 

always ready for whatever I throw at him

are you happy? 

all I have to do is look around – the answer is all around me 

I don’t have to think very hard 


Savannah Shaw 

Another Sunday Afternoon

It’s the feeling when you read a cryptic post

that you thoughts was a birthday message on a Sunday afternoon.

Only to realize,

it was a post to memorialize a life of a friend who passed

and a phone call to share the news.

It’s familiar and fresh yet years-old-sadness.

The week following brings perspective,

overdue friend check-ins,

motivation to start over…

Death reveals the beginning again and the reminder of

how selfish yet natural it is to make it about me.

A comfortable wing to hide under

And channel all my other sorrows.

Maybe, pay attention, instead, to those sorrows

in between this and the next inevitable passing.

And the next one won’t be so much about me.

It never was to begin with.

On a lighter note

All of their faces

the lines that frame her smiling eyes

the folds that deepen his loving smile

the nose crinkle that gives company to her joy

the gait that their walks share— making them family

the tap of her wrist against her hip when she’s giddy

the wiggle of his arms before he hugs

the glitter in the corner of their eye—left over makeup from a night of being themselves

I’m paying attention

because they are, those whom I love,

the glimpses I reach for in my mind

when I hope to feel at home.

Kelly Mowry 

Paying Attention to the Way We Value

When you know the work that went into something, you value it more. 

It’s morning and it’s raining. 

I hold my cup of coffee close to my face as I stare and get lost outside that window. The steam from my cup rises up and I begin to enjoy this coffee before I even take a sip. I think about how good it is and how I’m thankful to have it…all before I even tasted it. 

This strikes me. 

What if it’s a bad cup of joe?! Haha

Last week I sat here drinking instant coffee. I drank it, but I didn’t enjoy it. I kept thinking, if only I had real coffee. 

And on this morning I sit here with that real stuff. Moments before I stood in that kitchen heating water, measuring the grounds, letting it steep, waiting, then pressing it through the filter. I was an active agent in creating this hot cup before me. 

I knew what it took for it to become what it is. 

It was a process. 

It wasn’t instant. 

Perhaps this is the very reason why I enjoy it so much. 

I value it because I know the work. I know the work, so I know the worth. 

And I guess that’s why I use this mug each morning. It’s not a perfect mug by any means. 

But I made it. I look at it, and I know the transformation from mud to clay; from drying to firing; from glazing to firing again. The weeks of work and waiting. 

This mug isn’t perfect but I don’t want anything else. I love this mug. And nothing can cause me to question its worth. For I am its creator. And I know. 

Oh God, my Creator. Is this how you look at me?

The very one who knit me together in my mama’s belly. 

The one who knows my whole story. All my days. 

Who has made me new and makes me new. 

Who calls me “mine”, “my precious”, “my beloved”.

Is this how you look at me God? Never, not once questioning my value?

Oh wow. This is. I breathe this in. I give in. I love you, too.

-written Fall 2019. Grady, Alabama 

Rachel Gamblin

The Beauty of Dying Accessories 

I wonder if the trees can see 

The beauty of their dying accessories 

In the same way that we 

Anticipate the yellows, reds, and oranges 

That cloak their soon barren arms — 

Stretched out for all to see 

The sharp beauty of the stripping 

I wonder if the trees can see 

The beauty of their dying accessories 

Sometimes it seems 

That they are completely confident of these things 

Perhaps they notice the dying and prepare for new life 

By wearing their beautiful new hues 

With courage for which it is due 

As they eagerly wait 

For Spring to make them new 

I wonder what it would take for me to see 

The beauty of my own dying accessories 

The things the Master Gardener lays to rest 

As He strips and prunes as He knows best 

Perhaps the trees 

Have a lot more to teach me

An Old Friend 


Hello again old friend 

You’re the last person I want to see 

But you are always the first to arrive 

It’s strange how you work 

And slip your way into my presence 

When I least expect it 


Your presence feels like a deep ache in the center of my stomach 

But at the same time 

You offer a gentle reminder – 


You whisper to me 

“You’re not as alone as it may seem” 


I wonder about this for a while.

Hailey Hawkins 

The scariest thing you could possibly do

It’s more terrifying than the conversation you’ve dreaded for years

It’s harder, takes all of you that you can give in that moment

And it won’t work half-assed, 

It sniffs out that you still have more to give and demands. 

It’s demanding. 

Requires this, and more 

you must be diligent, a fighter. 

It’s not for the faint of heart, 

Paying attention. 


In March, friends new and old spoke about it

And the invitation lingered in the air all year long

What started with the demanding process of paying attention 

To needs and pain and myself. 

Changed into the greatest joy. 

My life, this world around me, as it is

And not as it should be

Is worth seeing. 

Katie Lynch

“A dazzling, delicious life”

It was early,

to shake with joy,

with astonishment.

But what is morning, if not

a glorious window,

an invitation to possibility?

Pay attention to who walks you home to yourself

Do not be startled by the shy desire to believe something is true

What if we are worthy of what is golden and new?

Let me dream up a dazzling, delicious life:

is it not simply a handful of ordinary miracles?

Spinning in the rain

Asking strangers their names

Letting someone hold your pain

Two, three, or four glasses of wine

Riding the carousel one more time

Cherishing someone you swear is divine

When you crumble into hands fit for wonder

An obesity of love between palms

What else could hold you again?\

Leita Williams 

When will I realize? 

Encounter the light 

Close the curtains 

Listen intently 

Forget spontaneously 

The cycle never ends 

Highs to lows 

Mountains to valleys 

Found to hidden. 

What is missing??


Now we can begin again 

Tears could never surface 

For breaths were never taken 

The only cry is of the deepest of breaths 


Questions left unanswered 

Never enough time 


We realize 

Exhaustion unfolds from the lonely searches for answers 


That is the answer 

I was made to breathe.

I was made to be. 

I was made! 


Can someone hand me a tissue? 

Austin Frederking

Pay attention

To the soft whisper 


Be soft with her, 

really listen in. 

You’ll come to see, 

your body, 

She speaks. 

Be kind to her, 

really lean in. 

You’ll come to hear, 

Your advocate 


She’ll tell you 

It’s okay 

To slow down 

She’ll remind you 

It’s okay 

To listen 

To yourself 

It’s okay 

To show up 

just for today

You don’t have to 

Figure it all out 

You don’t have to 



You don’t have to 

Be a stranger 


You don’t have to be 




You can 


In your body. 



with your body.


Your body. 

Bailey Frederking 

Paying attention

Most of my days are spent with the young people,

The ones who aren’t fully formed into who they are going to be one day

(although when you look closely we are all this way).

They are just trying on identities, words, friends

Just testing out each new outfit to see if it’s “me” for them

They carry the heavy loads of all of these “try-on’s” like the heavy backpacks they wear around school

Except these are full of “what if’s” and “why’s” and “who am I’s” and “can you even see me’s”

And I pay attention to them

I have to

To who they are beneath the layers of




Insecurity and inauthenticity

The fear is striking out

And the fear of missing out

And I see such depth

Such growing wisdom

Feelings that matter

Maybe teenagers are just misguided angst

Or maybe, if we look closely, they have hope spilling out of each acne-clogged pore.

I learn from them each day. It’s the most humbling part of my life.

One teaches me the beauty of unbridled and untamed passion, even in the face of rejection.

Another teaches me that the world, no matter what it says about itself, does not honor weakness, not like we need it to sometimes.

One tells me (quite forcefully) that some smiles are earned rather than freely given

And that we must work to see the softness that lies in each human being.

All of them in their own perfectly unique ways, teach me patience.

It’s a hidden gift how much they add to our world just by existing and continuing to exist.

If only we are willing to pay attention.

Caroline Beltrami 

Lessons from Fagliano

There’s a difference when you pay attention to the answers of a crossword puzzle, instead of merely maneuvering your way to a victory. I’ve learned the hard way as every once and a while NYT Mini maker, Joel Fagliano, will repeat a clue. If I wasn’t paying attention the first time, I’ll feel it in my gut the second. A lot like lessons. Hearing something for the first time comes with the grace of no knowledge base, but lessons are learned in the practice of paying attention. You see, I can tell you now that a Jib is a name for a triangular sail and that the Colts won the Superbowl in 2006, but there are also hundreds of hints (and hundreds of lessons) in one ear and out the other.

The dirt will keep collecting until you leave the shoes at the door. The strain will keep you limp till you start moving with your core. The differences will be dividing till you listen more.

I’m learning a lot from Fagliano. He likes to bring up French culture, moments in history, and words less commonly shared. But one of the biggest things I’m learning from him right now is that there is a difference between filling in blanks and bringing what you know to bear. Lazio is the Italian region whose capital is in Rome. We’ll see if I remember that in a few months when I look at the dirt on the floor and decide to put off sweeping by pulling out Fagliano’s crossword of the day.

Carson Travers 

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